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ok i know i have been slipping lately ....

Life has been hectic for quite some time

since my last blog.. we have moved papa twice. once from calgary and then into the hospital and then from there to a nursing home closer than calgary ..didin't like the five hour drive... ok i know i can't count today it is actually three times... so sue me for one.

anyways then he took a turn for the worse in ajanuary and we all thought he was going to go .. but he pulled through. a little worse for ware but he made it.. so we placed him n a nursing home..woo hoo my brother helped find this one!!! will miracles never cease.. sorry to all you out there but for eleven years i have carried this burden alone . . anyways where was i... oh yes . Julie finally decided tio enter into the picture after let see....seven and a half years..... a little to little a little too late... anyways she went to see him every day and made out that she was god's gift again.. no problem. i needed the break

then in may on the seventeenth my father passed away gently in his sleep . i am now embarking on the hardest journey i could ever have imagined.. taking my father home to bury him in Budapest. and then my journey begins . to live my life without him. to all of you this would seem like a dream come true. but for me i was there and did what i did because i loved my dad very much and knew he was childlike and needed me to care for him. i will write more of the trip later and when i return. hope all is smurffy in your world. 

ok moving is hell. i don't care who knows or who cares at this point. we bought a farm and now we are being told no one wants to finance a farm. what in the world is this world coming too. a farm works for us . do people not understand you wouldn't actually buy a farm if you thought in any way you would not be able to make it work. i dunno i think the banks have lost there marbles. a farm is what grows the food they eat and provides meat and milk . as well as grain for their twelve grain breads. do they think all htis stuff just magically appears? what gives in this so called agri community minded banking system of ours?

 

ok so it is 4.57am and i am still up. this sucks. you would think i am tired but no. the dogs are just hyper as heck and i am worried agan about jayme. his ears are once again causing him grief. the doctor said he can't put tubes in as it is too invasive but what the heck are we gonna do when his meds don't work anymore

at least tubes are in and fall out when they are not required anymore. this feeding him a decongestant every time his ears act up is b.s. ok i am a little tired and a tad bit cranky, i had better get going and try to get some sleep , jayme will be up soon .

Well hello . this season's camping has been quite fun. been to a few places and spent as much time outdoors as i could. have a really nice tan and a whole bunch of really good memories . second eldest has decided that i am a nasty mom, but hey that is what happens at seventeen your mom become a nasty person.  especially when you break all the rules. this too shall pass . at least he can't sit on the computer till four in the morning anymore so maybe with a bit more sleep he may become human again..never can tell. anyway more to tell later .too tired to type at the moment.